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If your life was all you had to give your beloved,
how could you not give it? If it was someone you truly loved?
~Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn

Good question. And another good question.
How could you dare hurt the one you love, or even dare think of it?

That was the question that hit me when I woke up today.

Love. Such a broad word. Just four lettered, yet means a gazillion depending on the one holding it. As for me, I make it simple. I Corinthians 13:4-8. And to prove it? John 15:13. Not an easy one, huh? Of course. Love is not just a feeling. It never was to begin with. Love is a choice.




Music:
Linkin Park - Leave Out All the Rest

^I like this song.
When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

I've been quite preoccupied early today about what to do with this day. I didn't want to have any idle time, because I'm bloody good at it. I decided to get on with the day and accomplish some tasks. Hopefully.

Went to school to have some documents signed but the person I needed was not around. I have to be back on Thursday. Fine. I just went to our Library to make some "review" for the NLE. After a few hours of stay there, Joan manic joined me. We even ate lunch together.

Am no longer used to late night home-arrivals so I left earlier. While on jeep, I've been wondering what's with Market! Market! because something somewhere inside my brain was telling me that I have planned to go to this place. Well, I realized that I wanted to see some movies. I went to Video City and rented Panic Room. I just finished watching it. Awesome. I got carried away by some scenes. I am including Panic Room in my favourite movie list.

I am not going to make my review today for Panic Room. It's getting late and I need my good night sleep.

By the way, I haven't mentioned here that I already finished reading Breaking Dawn. It was Friday, 7, a weekend a half ago. No comments yet. Been quite busy lately.

Time to retire from the day now. I am going to school tomorrow for our CHD Rationalization. I hope the sun won't rise like hell. I am really having a hard time dealing with heat.



Music:
Jaci Velasquez - Imagine Me Without You

I wonder what ties this blog entry to 3. I guess I'll just try to connect things.


03 November 2008
I was in Shang and Mega; was supposed to meet Jeff. We didn't meet. Time conflict. Anyways, while killing time before our supposed meeting, as usual I was loitering in PowerBooks. I was still deliberating should I buy Breaking Dawn or wait further. And should I opt for the former, I was wondering if it's in Mega-PB or Shang-PB. Rachel, my textmate of the day, told me, "Hindi naman siguro tatanungin ng tao kung saang branch ka bumili." [People won't ask which branch you've bought (Breaking Dawn).] Yeah, right. Heehee.. I was just being choosy. I care where my 12% VAT goes.

By the way, I decided not to wait. I've finally bought Breaking Dawn in Shang-PowerBooks. Delaying so means going to bookstore again. I just have to stop being tempted. Books are so tempting. I need to buy clothes too. And besides, I have enough books unread at home. Don't forget my nursing books! *sigh*

And because I came home quite late (than my usual around 6 o'clock) I decided to sleep early. I was also tired. I already have Breaking Dawn with me. I so wanted to read it already but I might not be able to sleep before midnight and I'd be accountable to God. It was so tempting to read, even just a few pages. But I know myself enough that I'd probably end up sleeping at the time when I'm supposed to be waking up.

Oh book! How do I resist thee?


04 November 2008
11:40, UMak Library. I started reading Breaking Dawn, only after I've read a couple of pages from my MCN notes. Of course, I still need to fill my head with nurse's stuff and not just vamp stuff. It's not healthy, I know. I've suffered enough of that. But of course, my impatience grew every minute. I just wanted to dig into the story. I decided to wait no further.

As for the "3" thing, I was with three of my batchmates. Not so hang out thingy though, just got near them. I had my own table, one like those in FHS' canteen.

Btw, it's U.S. Presidential Election Day. I wonder how America's doing. It's still 16:50 something in Uncle Sam's watch.


05 November 2008
03:30. I woke up around this time. I can't remember what woke me up, maybe risk for aspiration. I can't even remember anything from my dream. The only memories bombarding my "empty" brain was Breaking Dawn stuff. I hate it, seriously. Someone was also lurking in my mind, which I've come to get used to. I've learned to cope with that, somehow.

I've been trying to extract anything from my brain about what it was up to before I came into consciousness. I have theories on why I couldn't remember a thing. My subconscious was strong enough to wrestle with my consciousness. Or maybe the "thing" would just cause me anxiety, thus subconscious was on the go protecting myself. But I'd bet on this theory: I have a bad memory.

Whatever I had on that dream gave me a bloody headache. Or maybe I had headache that's why I woke up. Either way. my headache is alarming/bothering me. I have headaches every month, at least twice. What actually bothered me was something I've read in my Nx notes. Headache is one of the signs and symptoms of HPN. The last time I had my BP taken, it was 120/70. That may be a couple of months ago but my BP had always been 90/60 since we started having RLE rotations. That was August 2006. Yes, for two and a half years my BP had always been in the threshold.

The other thing that bothered me, which I've also read in my Nx notes, was pain in MI can cause shock. I was not having MI. Angina? hopefully not. Anyways, I wondered if a headache can cause shock. Seriously, what was I thinking? If you think I'm crazy, don't worry I've thought of that eons ago.

With these concerns in mind (I'm just making my head ache more) I decided to get up and go on hydro therapy. I'm not really fond of analgesics; thanks to my high pain tolerance. Btw, I still have a headache. Right temple. -_-




Music:
Chris Tomlin - God of this City

First, I have a web blog which I have totally forgotten until less than an hour ago. It's about my comments and thoughts about what I've read, watched and stuff.. The website is here: Matarese

Also, I've found out that I made blog entries for Stephenie Meyer's Twilight saga. I didn't remember making them. Bloody. Anyways, here are the links: Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse. I still haven't read Breaking Dawn so that's out of the question. But I'm going to buy the book next week. I have to! Haha.

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There are quite a number of films I want to watch but I've been putting them on hold because I have to make sure that, first, I'd be able to buy Breaking Dawn and, second, I must have enough money for the Twilight movie.

My consience won't be able to take it if I watch a movie but won't be able to watch Twilight on its premiere. If I can, I might as well watch on the premiere night. Haha! The only catch is the fans. I don't want to watch with people, especially teenage girls, screaming their lungs out because of Edward Cullen. Shoot!

Anyways, I'm still deliberating should I watch on the premiere night or in private (read: not with most people). Well I guess that depends if I get to have a  free screening ticket or how much cash I can save for that day.

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I've just finished watching Heroes' episode 7, which is also the latest episode. Phew! A lot of characters have become unnecessarily annoying. I'd say Maya ang Mohinder belong to the top list. I may like Peter Petrelli, but he's one of those characters that really annoy me. I'd rather watch scenes of Gabriel/Sylar, whatever name you prefer. But there are also characters that I've come to like more. Gabriel/Sylar is one of them. But I'm thinking more of Angela Petrelli. I know, she's a manipulative woman. Pretty scary. But she's making me curious. I find her interesting, minus her annoying manipulative skills.

It was also nice to see Kristen Bell again. I've always adoured Bell. Thanks to Veronica Mars. Speaking of which, I really miss it. A lot! Haha!

By the way, I found a picture of Zachary Quinto and Hayden Panettiere together. Hmm.. Is Claire leaving her Uncle Peter behind because of what grandfather did? Oh! Gabriel is also.. XOXO

Here's the picture:

Music:
Sparklehorse - Don't Take My Sunshine Away

I miss having a light expression on my face and my random smiles. But I am not having those lately. I have so much on my mind bothering me. And I have a future that makes me quite anxious. It's been a pretty roller coaster lately.

Last night, I finished reading Emily Brontë's Wuthering Heights. I'm not going to make any comments about it, yet. But as of today, I've been craving for a new book to read. But of course, I know very well what I've been wanting to have. I'll just have to find out if I will have to shell out some money, for important reasons, in the next three days. If not, I might buy Breaking Dawn on Monday after our review class. The thought makes me excited!

To read the Breaking Dawn has always been my goal the second after I finished reading Eclipse. But I only rely in my cousin to lend me her books. Too bad the last book of the saga was still in her teacher's possession. when I finished Eclipse. As of now, that status hasn't changed so I will have to buy my own copy. Of course, it's a top personal priority but there are things I have to consider so reading the book is yet to happen.

I have to sleep now. I feel tired after another bookstore hopping..



Music:
The Mitch Hansen Band - The Third Wife

Heroes
I was able to finish the episodes I missed in season 1. Thank goodness! As of now, I've already watched 10 episodes of Heroes season 2. I can now catch up with my cousins. But of course, I still have other things to do so I have to manage time properly.

Pictures
I uploaded pictures I took since Friday in my Photobucket and Multiply accounts. I also have them burned on CD. Back ups will always be important. I need to fix my folder in our PC.

NLE Review: Nursing Research
I ditched class yester noon. Know why..

Wuthering Heights
Albeit having a hard time understanding the pace and how Emily Brontë wrote, I like the story. It's not one of your typical love stories. It's tragic, I'd say. I haven't finished reading it but I'm looking forward to it.

Breaking Dawn
I'm still saving up for this book. Too bad I've spent half of my savings to SBC last Sunday, and for treating my classmates last Friday. I'm fine with the latter though. Can't cry over spilled milk.

Weather
It rained yester day. We were in the AVR and I-we- could hear the wind and rain hitting the windows. I liked it. As of now, I can hear thunders from time to time. I hope it rains today. Or maybe just another Forks-like experience just like what happened on 14 October 2008. I loved it and I'd love to have another one today.



Music:
Vivaldi - L'Autunno