ελπίδα, πίστη, αγάπη - music

Twilighter

noreply@blogspirit.com (JenShinrai) — Mon, 06 Oct 2008 10:26:00 +0800

I'm a self-confessed book lover. But I've never shown such fondness as I did to Twilight saga compared to other books. Of course, there are stuff to look for given that it's franchised to be a movie.

But who would think that Twilight is capable of inspiring people to make songs? Check on The Mitch Hansen Band. This band has beautiful songs, close to being so literal to Twilight. Haha!

I have plenty of favourites: The Third Wife, She's Brighter, and Number 3. But my most favourite is Lullaby.

LULLABY

Being made of stone will make you strong
But I've been alone for oh so long
Then there you were a silent mind
And beauty that I thought I'd never find

Something Strange is happening
And I don't know what to do
I haven't felt my heart beat in over 90 years
I love the way you look at me
When you're thinking no one else can see
I feel like some one different when you're near

So sleep now and hold me tight
Everything will be alright
Just lay down and rest your weary eyes
Calm down, you're safe with me
I love you more than you can see
You need your rest and so I wrote you this
Lullaby

Could someone who has a soul
Have such a hard time staying in control
Eternity can wait a while
I'll miss the way you blush when you smile

I still haven't read the Breaking Dawn, and I am so tempted to buy the book. Thanks to my life as still being dependent, I'm having second thoughts. XD Maybe I should just keep my patience. How I wish that Grace's teacher will return her book soon.

Music:
The Mitch Hansen Band - I Don't Know

Dreamers

noreply@blogspirit.com (JenShinrai) — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 14:00:00 +0800

No one else sees it, no one else knows,

but the mirror shows what I have become.

My insatiable desire to read another book seemed to cost me this day. Most likely.

I just couldn't leave my bed for something else when I started reading the story. It was an online story/novel, though, but it was good enough. I was actually seeing myself through the lead character, Muse. By the way, I was reading Sarah Suleski's Dreamers. Her character and personality were almost the same as mine. She was just carefree to speak her mind compared to me.

Most of all, her reclusive attitude mirrors mine. But like she said, I am willing to be found. I certainly am, but I want to know if it's worth the chase and search.

I made a collection of quotes from this story and posted it here. There were just so many words that reminded me of myself and my life.

By the way, I think today marks the longest time that I've been listening to jazz music. I had it even before I began reading the story at noon today. I already finished the latest part, 26. But there are still some parts to come.

Since I've been sitting here for hours, I was thinking of going to cemetery or cemeteries to be my place of solitude. And maybe, I might do it often. I know I need some company, and maybe the dead can do that favour for me. Besides, I've always longed for solitude. Being in the cemetery is like hitting two birds with one stone.

Fickle Muse, always just out of reach,

always hiding, never satisfied, no matter where she goes.

~Dream

I hope Grace will be able to have New Moon when she gets home.

Music:

The Braxton Brothers - Whenever I See You

101 Thinga in 1001 Days

noreply@blogspirit.com (JenShinrai) — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 14:00:04 +0800

Goal: Accomplish 101 things in 1001 days.
Task: Update the list, e.g. Cross out an accomplished goal.

Reminder: The goals must be SMART- Specific, Measurable, Attainable, Realistic, Time-bounded.

101 Things in 1001 Days

~~1. Make 101 Things in 1001 Days list in one day.~~

PHYSICAL/HEALTH
2. Gain 10 lbs. and never lose it.
3. Donate blood twice.
4. Get a tattoo.
5. Have another ear piercing.
6. Get a PhilHealth card.

7. See a cardiologist.
8. See a neurologist.
9. Have >/=5 </=8 hrs of sleep every night for 28days. (3/28)
10. Fast once a month for 6 months. (0/6)
11. Fast twice a month for the next 12 months.

12.Cry whenever I have to./Don't stop tears from falling.

CAREER/PERSONAL
13. Get licensed.
14. Work in PHC.
15. Enroll in a Japanese language class.
16. Find and rent an apartment in Makati.
17. Write a blog entry in German, Spanish, Italian or French.

18. Read The New York Times for 4 weeks. (3/28 days)
19. Memorize all the books of the Bible, chronologically.
20. Learn to drive a car.
21. Avail a "Yellow Card."
22. Restore bank account.

23. Get a massage.
24. Buy 2 new dress.
25. Buy new shoes.
26. Have nails done.
27. Dye hair.

28. New cellphone with camera and MP3.
29. Get a SBC 2009 planner, if there will be one.
30. Buy all pen colours of MonAmi Love Pets.

FAMILY/FRIENDS
31. Suport Gilead's education.
32. Visit family every quarter.
33. Send a "just because" card to a friend.
34. Give a "just because" gift to a friend.
35. Send post card to 3 5W members.
36. Accept an offer for drinking session (from friends only).

COMMUNITY
37. Update membership in GreenPeace.
38. Join or help Gawad-Kalinga.
39. Make 5 letters to City Administrator. (1/5)
40. Write a letter to a local magazine.
41. Write a letter to a local newspaper.

ANTI-RACISM
42. Make a blog entry to compliment USA.
43. Make a blog entry to compliment S. Korea.

HOBBIES
44. Write 5 poems in English.
45. Write 5 poems in Filipino.
46. Write a blog entry in colloquial Tagalog.
47. Finish a cross-stitch design.
48. Learn to knit.

49. Try rafting.
50. Make 5 cellphone bags. (0/5)
51. Make at least 1 shoulder bag. (0/1)
52. Make 5 pillow cases. (0/5)
53. Draw using water colour.

HOBBIES: CULINARY/FOOD :3
54. Try 5 new restaurants.
55. Bake a cake.
56. Cook 3 Filipino dishes. (0/3)
57. Make 5 seafood dishes. (0/5)
58. Cook Italian dish every month. (0/33)

LITERATURE
59. Finish Leon Uris' The Haj.
60. Read 5 more Robert Ludlum novels.
61. Read Mario Puzo's The Dark Arena.
62. Read Tom Clancy's Op-Centre: Divide & Conquer.
63. Read Anne McCaffrey's The Girl Who Heard Dragons.

64. Read LotR.
65. Make 5 book reviews.
66. Read Sylvia Plath's The Bell Jar.
67. Read 3 more Sidney Sheldon novels.
68. Finish David Cole's The Shadow Play.

MOVIES/ENTERTAINMENT
69. Watch The Matarese Circle movie screening.
70. Watch The Transformers 2.
71. Watch The Bell Jar movie.
72. Buy the new The Godfather DVD.
73. Watch The Godfather trilogy again.

74. Finish CSI:NY season5.
75. Finish Las Vegas season 4.
76. Finish G1 Transformers.
77. Finish Gossip Girl.
78. Finish Rome.

79. Finish Heroes season1.
80. Attend 2 stage plays.
81. Watch 1 Filipino movie every quarter. (0/8)
82. Make 10 movie reviews. (0/10)
83. Movie marathon every birthday. (0/2)

MUSIC
84. Attend 2 Pinoy concerts.
85. Buy 3 Filipino albums. (0/3)
86. Pursue guitar lessons.
87. Pursue drum lessons.
88. Play 3 songs with a guitar. (0/3)

89. Write 2 songs. (0/2)
90. Memorize 5 Filipino songs. (0/5)

TRAVELLING
91. Trip in Vigan.
92. Trip to Bohol.
93. Trip to Camiguin.
94. Go to a zoo.
95. Join hiking or mountain climbing.

96. Solo overdrive.
97. 20 FBMOs every year. (0/60)
98. Visit a botanical garden.

MISCELLANEOUS
99. Inspire others to make 101 Things in 1001 Days list.
100. Make a 100^th goal on the 707^th day (26 July 2010).
101. Make a new list on the 1001^st day (28 September 2010).

Tama ba bilang ko? XD

Music:
Licht Dieser Weilt

Death of a Mother

noreply@blogspirit.com (JenShinrai) — Mon, 01 Sep 2008 08:25:00 +0800

Who wouldn’t get stressed because of a mother’s death? Even tough woman Angelina Jolie lost weight last year because her mother died. How much more do we expect from Ely Buendia who had heart surgery last year and lost his mother two days before the concert?

Stress can either be positive or negative. I think the recent cut-concert last Saturday with thousands of fans who attended was really overwhelming. It was a positive stress to Ely’s heart. But stress is a stress.

Enough. Wala akong balak mag-layout ng inference or disease process dito. XD

Music:

Eraserheads - Pare Ko

Fight the Moonlight

noreply@blogspirit.com (JenShinrai) — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 10:45:00 +0800

I woke up today contemplating about my sleep's dreams. I had 3 dreams in one sleep. Maybe I had more but these three dreams have one common denominator. I will not speak about them much here, but I have them posted in my new blog about dreams: Simulare di Sogni

Life is full of surprises but most often and most of the time, the one that surprises me is myself. I believe I have mentioned this already before. I was supposed to make a post in one of my blogs but something caught my attention. I wanted to check it, but I couldn't. I think I can't. Spell trouble.

s-o-m-a-t-i-z-a-t-i-o-n

I am feeling dizzy and I'd say that that something which caught my attention had to do with this. I've had this "attacks" before. I hate such state in my life. I have to fight this feeling.

What these dreams revealed to me when I was contemplating about it was the possible fact that my subconscious still holds the memories strong in my system. And I have to be prepared of whatever may come. Read: I have to be sure to the decision/s that I will make.

I think I am being warned.

PASSION

noreply@blogspirit.com (JenShinrai) — Sat, 02 Aug 2008 23:55:00 +0800

I had the title written in all-caps because I'll be talking about "Passion" and "passion" in this journal entry.

The first Passion is about the concert I attended to last night in PhilSports Arena (ULTRA), Pasig City. It's called PASSION World Tour Concert - Manila. It was awesome. If you want more details, check the following:

MySpace

Multiply

I just really want this journal entry to be short.

Watching the musicians performed last night stirred something in me. I was observing them and I saw passion. Yes, I saw their hearts as they performed. I may not have seen all of it, but I did see passion. It's one of the things I always look for in every musician performing on stage, or off stage.

And by the way, I have a new favourite Christian singer/writer- Kristian Stanfill. His songs are really beautiful. The lyrics are not empty. Each line speak powerfully. My favourite part is from Jesus Paid It All.

O praise the One who paid my debt
And raised this life up from the dead

I had fun and was even blessed as I watched my countrymen, especially the younger generation, praised and worshiped God together in that one awesome night.

Music:
Kristian Stanfill -Jesus Paid It All

Letters to Cleo

noreply@blogspirit.com (JenShinrai) — Thu, 24 Jul 2008 21:40:00 +0800

I'm becoming fond of this band, since I watched 10 Things I Hate About You last Monday. Oh, I love the movie. I had a wonderful endorphin rush. =D

Their songs are fun and cool, which usually give me a vibrant feeling. I'm even having I Want You to Want Me and Cruel to Be Kind as LSS. I also enjoy listening to their other songs. I like Let's Get High and Sister.

I think I'm going to make a frequent visit to their website.

Letters to Cleo - ...

Preoccupation

noreply@blogspirit.com (JenShinrai) — Tue, 22 Jul 2008 13:04:36 +0800

FOOD

I have been preoccupied with cooking lately. I want to cook. I want to make new dishes. Oh, I so need money. I need money for grocery. And I need money to buy new cooking materials. We're insufficient here. We only have what we usually use, but I want something else. Because I want to try new things.

I'm checking a lot of websites about recipes, with the hope that I can make something out of what's available in the house.

MOVIES

I want to watch a lot of movies. And they don't have to be those that are now showing in the cinemas. I want to watch movies I haven't watched before. I also want to watch movies I've already watched. Heehee..

BOOKS

I want to read the novels I haven't finished ~~though I have already started~~. I also want to read those novels I bought yet kept untouched. I even have one still sealed.

MUSIC

I miss playing the guitar. But I'm still learning. I still can't play a song in front of other people. I also want to pursue drum lessons.

Music:

Garbage - I Want You to Want Me

Heath Ledger - Can't Take My Eyes Off You

Letters to Cleo - Cruel to Be Kind

Kokoro no Uta

noreply@blogspirit.com (JenShinrai) — Wed, 25 Jun 2008 16:10:00 +0800

I WILL LIFT MY EYES
Written by Bebo Norman and Jason Ingram

God, my God, I cry out
Your beloved needs You now
God, be near, calm my fear
And take my doubt

*Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

**I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can’t climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

God, my God, let Mercy sing
Her melody over me
God, right here all I bring
Is all of me

*
**

‘Cause You are and You were and You will be forever
The Lover I need to save me
‘Cause You fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God
So hold me now

I have no one to run to but God alone. And there's nothing left but seek His love and comfort. This song speaks so much of what I am going through..

Now playing:

I Will Lift My Eyes

Winter Sleep

Music sings for me.

noreply@blogspirit.com (JenShinrai) — Mon, 12 May 2008 04:30:00 +0800

The songs I am listening to lately speak about me. In a sense. They are like the songs I have always wanted to sing. They speak about my story, my thoughts, and what I am going through. It is amusing.

These songs save me from shedding a tear. I don't want to blog out what I have in mind. It feels troublesome doing so lately. I have discussed the matter with a friend though. Thank you, Joseph. And thank you for the advice. I might consider it, having two people now who give me such advice. It's reasonable.

It's raining. It is raining hard. And I want to sleep. I want to go through deep sleep. I don't want to go to school. Bleh.

Music:

Yellowcard - Only One

True Faith - Dahil Ikaw

Marie Digby - Love Hurts