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I'm quite troubled right now. Was supposed to write this entry 12 hours ago but a brownout hit the village. Though it's about half day ago, I still think I should write about my thoughts.

My godparents gave me money yesterday so I can buy some clothes. Nice. I don't usually ask money for such stuff. I can live with a tight budget and with a rat's closet. But I am still a girl and I also like to dress up, though it only happens once in a blue moon. I'd rather spend my dimes on books. Haha!

What bothers me now is how to spend the money. There are stuffs I want to buy but I have to stick to the budget and must only buy what I need. I want to buy some dress, as in dress. OK, one piece will do. I feel like wearing dress lately albeit having no particular place where I could wear such. I think I just want to add a new dress in my cabinet. Anyways, I also want to buy some blouse, classy types. Yeah, yeah. So lady-like. But I'm still the boyish person like I used to be since freshmen in high school. I'd like to have some shabby-like clothes. Ha! I'm actually a ragged person, and my hair is a proof to that.

My hair is untamed. It's grown below my shoulder and I want it to be longer. But I miss having short hair. I used to wear one like every now and then, especially way back in high school. I always have a haircut. I just don't want to wear short hair right now because it seems like a trend lately. Besides, my hair is hard to manage so it'll be quite troublesome to have it short. Hair rebond? I don't like straight hair.  But I don't hate it either. Yeah, I've had one before and it gave me a neat look. But I think it's quite un-me though it suited me.

I am not a fan of straight hair, at least I don't like to have mine straight right now. I love my waves, minus the split ends, which is the reason why I want my hair to grow fast. I want to cut my hair and end the misery brought by split ends.

I think I'll go "shopping" later this day or tomorrow. I am hoping it'll help me unwind. And of course, I believe there's a book I'd love to buy. It's classic. Hmm.. Seems like I have to go to Robinson's Galleria for that book. Gah! I don't know wear to shop. T_T Ortigas? I kind of miss Shangri-La Plaza. Besides there's SM Megamall nearby. Wait! SM Megamall on weekend? NOOO!!

Seems like I have to check on St. Francis Square and Rob Galle or I'll just stick to Shang.



Music:
Patty Griffin - Moon Song

Special A is a story that primarily focuses on Hikari Hanazono and her attempt to beat her childhood rival, Kei Takishima.

It all started when Hikari was six years old. Her dad taught her how to fight, and she thought that she was undefeatable. But when she challenged Kei to a fight, he beat her and practically humiliated her. Since then, she swore that she would beat him no matter what.

She enrolled in the Private Hakusen Academy with him. It's an elite, rich school that separates classes by grades. The top students in each class is in the A class, and the top seven students in the A class are in the Special A [SA] class. Hikari, Kei, and their five other friends have been in SA since they were younger, although Kei is always ranked 1 and Hikari is always ranked 2. [Source]


Some interesting links about Special A:
Memento
Random Curiosity
KEIxHIKARI in CrunchyRoll

No one recommended Special A to me. I just found it in ADC-Anime while searching for servers where I can watch Fate/Stay Night. Oh! I wasn't able to post a blog entry for Fate/Stay Night. My bad. Anyways, it was an interesting Anime. I like Fate/Stay Night and I'm glad I haven't totally forgotten this Anime, which Francis or Jano recommended a year and a half ago.

Special A is an Anime packed with comedy, challenges, and a little romance. I didn't watch this Anime because of the latter. I got intrigued by the plot. Besides, there were only twenty four episodes. I prefer to watch Anime with few episodes.

I love watching this Anime. It's so entertaining. There were sad moments but they don't have much gravity. I miss watching this Anime. I'm actually planning to read its manga. Just can't get enough.

Hanazono Hikari, the main character, is very inspiring. She is an admirable and cheerful person, a friend you'd love to have. Her determination to beat Takishima Kei is superb. But Hikari is thickheaded and oblivious when it comes to romance, which reminded me of someone I know very well. Myself.

Takishima Kei is the ever rank 1 student of Hakusenkan (or Private Hakusen Academy) and also the rival of Hanazono Hikari, the ever rank 2. He always calls Hikari as Miss Rank Two as a tease. What I like most about him is his acknowledgement of Hikari's obtuseness.

For other characters and more character info, click here. Takishima Kei and Hanazono Hikari remind me so much of vampires. Their abilities are so unhuman. Haha!

Music:
YounHa - My Lover

Somehow.

I've been wondering a lot lately about some things in my life. But I could hardly figure out the core of what I really want. Something's amiss. Something's not right.

Opting to be good is not a choice. I do want to do good things, for myself and others, especially for others' sake. But I sometimes want to do some things that can cause harm, of course to myself only. If I do them, I believe I won't care what people will think of me. Too bad, not everyone will just sit and ignore the act. That doesn't bother me. What does is my responsibility to my pupils. They may not know, but that won't win the argument. It's the same whether they know or not.

Besides the people I'm concerned of, what bothers and stops me from doing something is the cause of it. I don't want to do something because someone, especially famous people or characters, have influenced me. I want to do something because I want to. And I'm still figuring out if my desire to do something has any external force included.

It seems like I am talking rubbish. Quite. It's good though. Delays me from doing the act, in case I plan to carry it out.



Music:
Natalie Imbruglia - Smoke

I read Cold Case again. Started and finished it yesterday. The first time I read it was two years ago. I'm glad I read it again because I've missed some details before.

Gillespie described Parrish as someone who doesn't know how to use her emotions. That struck me. I've always been eager to know myself. Talk about Johari Window. My case is different though. Ugh! There are really still plenty of things to know about myself. I am aware of my emotions, but not all of course. It's just that there are times when I have to pause and think of what and how to respond. I'm having a hard time explaining this. -_-

To make it simple, I prefer to act with logic. I guess that explains it all. Hopefully.



Music:
Vivaldi - La Primavera

I'm getting convinced that I skipped some things in my adolescent life and that my development was somewhat not in order. I (mentally/emotionally) grew up fast but missed some things. Doesn't matter, anyway. I'll cope up.

By the way, I just finished watching CSI:NY season 5 episode 12. The episode's title was Help and it's the latest of the season. I thought it'd take me a very long time before I could watch all the episodes. I know there were lots of goofs in this TV drama, but I am enjoying it. Objective reason- forensics. I am into forensics. Subjective reasons- Don Flack and Jess Angell, Lindsay Monroe and Danny Messer. I'm not going to say anything more. :p




Music: I'll Be Your Angel

I've been trying to "assess" the person who interviewed me earlier and I've noticed reactions that definitely spell negative for me. They were subtle but I do believe were still obvious. After the interview, I wasn't expecting much. Am not expecting anything at all. If it turns out good, wow! Seriously. Wow! And of course, praise God!

Like the feedback I've received earlier, I really need to pay more attention. I need it in my assessment skills, especially for some particular future use. =)



Music:
Patty Griffin - Nobody's Crying

I've been watching CSI:NY lately. It's more of a marathon activity. I'm already in season 4's third episode, You Only Die Once. I love this drama but I'm quite having dull moments. Of course, not everything they feature or show is real. More of my "discomforts" were brought by their case processing, especially human case processing. Autopsy. Who doesn't wear mask in front of corpse? Hello!

Albeit the unrealistic scenes of CSI:NY, I still love watching it. I enjoy it, especially when Flack and Danny are on the move and Montana approaching Stella and Mac with her discoveries. I personally love what she said in S4Ep3. "I did it! I rock!"



Music:
Bon Jovi - Always

I woke up from a phone call two days ago. It was from a HR Rep of People Support. She called to tell me that she'll be conducting a phone interview on me in 15 minutes. I was caught off guard. But it was fun. I think the impromptu interview was better than having a beforehand announcement. But I hated the part when I was asked to describe myself. I hate doing so. Describing oneself sounds so subjective to me and I don't like such things.

Anyways, I'm still preoccuppied with something. It's just a good thing that I'm not going through the state of confusion. I hate that too.


Music:
Stan Getz, Paul Home - Nature Boy

It's nice to know that I'm watching Anime again, though I only watch xxxHOLIC. I've already finished its season one two nights ago. Got to know this Anime, as usual- somewhere in the internet, through my cousin. He's got a DVD and we watch it here.

When I watched it, I've realized that I should've watched xxxHOLIC before. It's a good Anime with plenty of things to learn from. It has a different style of art but entertaining nonetheless. I also like the opening theme.

I am now watching the first episode of the second season while loading the first episode of Fate Stay Night. Francis recommended it to me before but those times where my latent state of vampirism so it was quite dismissed. But I did not forget it. Teehee..



Music:
Gackt and HYDE - Orange no Taiyou

I was in Dave's place yesterday. It was his birthday. ^__^ I was the first visitor who arrived. Haha! Talk about punctuality. It was nice to be back in his place for a gathering reason. College and high school friends were there. Actually, the latter were more on Alexandrite classmates. Nice. I miss them already.

Neko brought her niece, Elai. She's four years old. Really pretty like her aunt. She was quiet at first. Of course, new faces. But a little later she started coming after Dave to play with him. When Dave was spending more time with the older visitors, those were us, I thought of playing with the little girl. I was quite bored and confused whom to spend the time with. Losh. I tickled Elai and she smiled. I thought she'd only play with Dave. In the end, we became playmates. Or ticklemates. Gosh, I miss playing with her. Haha! I'm going to visit Neko's place soon.

Btw, there was something really new this new year. But it started during the holiday break. Teehee..



Music:
Mika Nakashima - Real World