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Thursday, 25 September 2008

Eli-Zabeth-an

These are random thoughts..
 
 
 
Insufficience hath stirred within me anger that shalt not be quenched easily.
Like a fire of amain, this wrath consumes my soul.
 
 
 
O, brave new world! Wait for thine servant. Patience thou shalt keep and virtue thou shalt heap.
 
 
Shall I ever behave like a lady?
But when will the wind blow its sweet breeze?
 
 
 

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Wednesday, 24 September 2008

Fair is foul, and foul is fair.

afd86187005e76e6a33f8b7f0ebe0f13.jpgI never thought that it's been already a week since my last entry here. I wonder what happened. Nah. I'm not in the  mood to reminisce.
 
Yesterday was like my personal book fair tour. I stopped by a store selling nth-hand books in MRT. I found classic works by Austen and Shakespeare, and others. I even bought a Macbeth, which only cost me P13.00! Of course, it's classic from the inside out but I don't really mind.
 
I also went to NBS of Glorietta and Greenbelt. I found classic books of the same kind bcheaper than those in NBS of Powerplant. Wouh! I'm going back there and buy a lot. Heehee.. I was supposed to buy some yesterday but I knew that I won't be able to read them right away. I still have a lot to read here.
 
Being choosy quite costs me. Losh.
 
I'm missing something.. And I know what it is. And I know what I said about it. *sigh*
 
 
Btw, today is my dear friend Arckham's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! ^_^
 
 
 
Music:
Sixpence None the Richer - Brighten My Heart
 

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Tuesday, 16 September 2008

Photosensitive

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That's what the Valsalva Group usually says about anything negative and the like. And I just had one of my negative experiences today. I had photosensitivity. Thanks to our proximal position to the projection!
 
My eyes really hurt. But at least I was able to use my shades indoors. Oh! I named it Logan, a a month or so ago.But of course, it sucks. Even Neko was complaining.. about our position, that is.
 
 
 
Music:
Madonna - Ray of Light
 
 
 

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Monday, 15 September 2008

Teary Monday

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Something shocking hit me this morning. Neko told me that Kim is already in the USA. She left without saying goodbye, without any notice.
 
I am not upset with her. And I believe never will I become one. Kim is very important to me. She's like my sister, like Neko. But it hurts to know that.. she's no longer around. I feel left behind. Though of course, Neko, Dave, Mike and Jemil are still around. I want to say that I need her. I'd like her to be around because I am a big mess, though I am in the process of recovery. I miss Kim. So much.
 
My brothers and sisters in SERG know that I am quite a crybaby. Only around them. Yes, I did shed tears this morning though I was in a position with dozens of people behind me. The Valsalva Group and some of our batchmates may have noticed. But who cares?! I miss Kim so much, and it really hurts. My lachrymal glands are still ready to shed salty drops any time now.
 
Albeit being oceans apart, I still care for Kim. I will always hope and pray for her safety, success, and joy wherever she may be. And I will make sure that we'll see each other again. SERG will see each other again. Yes, that includes Sir Jake.
 
 
 
Music:
Santana - Smooth
 

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Sunday, 14 September 2008

Rise and Shine

2c950f633289338cc4f7978962c694cf.jpgAte Faye and Rachel paid us a visit earlier. Kerren and Sean were with them too. It was nice to see them. And I thank God for Ate Faye's commitment to the youth. She shared, for the nth time, at least to Rachel and me, her masteral story. The George Washington University story. Well, she still had three audience. Grace was with us too. Perry was busy with his archi stuff.
 
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I've been annoyingly sleepy lately. Polysomnia. I do know the bloody reasons for such condition/behaviour, and I won't allow it to continue. No further unnecessary trip to bed. Losh.
 
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Two more days before the Book Fair is over, and I do hope I'll be able to come and buy some books. LORD, please let me  have more books. I want to buy some classics. I want to buy books of fantasy and supernatural. I want to buy anything that seems interesting. *sigh* I am simply craving for books with light genre.
 
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U Turn
I am taking that.
 
 

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Saturday, 13 September 2008

Umbra

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I am willing to be found.
-Muse, Dreamers
 
 
One minute..
Two minutes...
 
I really don't know how to start this. I'm not even sure what I really want to write. I know I am -been- going through depression but I am doing everything to conceal my pathetic state. I need help, I know, but I am not seeking for one. Living this way is really awful. I've lost a lot. And I've been losing. And I think, most likely, I might lose more.
 
The laughing emo. That's what my friend and me called myself. It really was funny. The title, that is. But of course, I am not like those loitering people in SM Megamall. I don't have any plans to be like them. No way.
 
But still, I know, I am still being pathetic. I have to find my way back. I have to recover. I need to. I don't want to stay this way anymore. It's too much for me. I might become like the walls of Jericho soon. I don't want that to happen. It's too horrible.
 
I hope and pray that my dark days will soon be over. It's been months already.
 

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Friday, 12 September 2008

Eclipse

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10-12 September 2008

I wasn’t that excited to read this book, but I knew I had to read it soon. I guess I had the premonition that it won’t be as exciting as its predecessors. I wasn’t entirely right, of course. But I had disappointments. The plot and story have nothing to do with my disappointments, which were more of discomforts.

There were scenarios where the transitions were too fast that they made me quite lost. Of course, I was quick to recover and find the pace. But it would’ve been better if the publisher used at least one “enter” to make it better, and bearable for me. If it was a fresh “copy and paste" from Meyer’s manuscript, I think they’re quite in a hurry to print the book. I think I’ve also seen a wrong spelling and misuse of pronoun. But I was too engrossed with the story to bother myself and recheck it so I just let it slip.

I may only have given 3 stars for Eclipse, but I did have fun reading the book. And I did make fun out of myself- chuckling while sitting on a bench inside a mall. I was doing all my best to conceal any emotions while reading. I may have succeeded (as a human), but not close to Edward Cullen.

 

 

Music:
Antonio Vivaldi - The Four Seasons - Spring

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Wednesday, 10 September 2008

New Moon

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15 hours and 20 minutes. Meals, bathroom privileges, and naps included. Can you count 3 hours of losing consciousness for normal and health reasons as nap?

I was really more than happy when Grace tossed me New Moon yesterday when she got home. I was overly excited that I started devouring it right away. 16:15-07:35.

Reading a Stephenie Meyer novel just brings out the vampire in me. I did have fun though, minus the teary eyes and the possibility that I’m making the circles around my eyes show. Well, that qualifies me to be a zombie.

New Moon had really stimulated my lachrymal glands, twice at least. It may sound silly, but I was just able to relate to the pain, agony, and hope some characters went through. I understood them and some memories my subconsciousness have tried to repress were coming into surface. I know I still have to address most of them.

As of now, I am already past quarter the pages of Eclipse. Had it at 10:30 this morning. I'm just taking a little break right now. Things are really getting interesting. I’ve even figured out a part of myself while reading the 3rd book to the Twilight saga. Credits to Rosalie.

 

 

Mood: Fuzzy
Music: Antonio Vivaldi - Violin Sonata in G Minor

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Monday, 08 September 2008

Dreamers

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No one else sees it, no one else knows,
but the mirror shows what I have become.
 
 
My insatiable desire to read another book seemed to cost me this day. Most likely.

I just couldn't leave my bed for something else when I started reading the story. It was an online story/novel, though, but it was good enough. I was actually seeing myself through the lead character, Muse. By the way, I was reading Sarah Suleski's Dreamers. Her character and personality were almost the same as mine. She was just carefree to speak her mind compared to me.
 
Most of all, her reclusive attitude mirrors mine. But like she said, I am willing to be found. I certainly am, but I want to know if it's worth the chase and search.
 
I made a collection of quotes from this story and posted it here. There were just so many words that reminded me of myself and my life.
 
By the way, I think today marks the longest time that I've been listening to jazz music. I had it even before I began reading the story at noon today. I already finished the latest part, 26. But there are still some parts to come.
 
Since I've been sitting here for hours, I was thinking of going to cemetery or cemeteries to be my place of solitude. And maybe, I might do it often. I know I need some company, and maybe the dead can do that favour for me. Besides, I've always longed for solitude. Being in the cemetery is like hitting two birds with one stone.
 
 
Fickle Muse, always just out of reach,
always hiding, never satisfied, no matter where she goes.
~Dream 
 
 
I hope Grace will be able to have New Moon when she gets home.
 
 
 
 
Music:
The Braxton Brothers - Whenever I See You
 

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Sunday, 07 September 2008

One Sunday Morning

Weekends used to make me feel excited, but the effect seemed to have gone lately. I have an idea why, but it has gone to a "general" level. I've been longing for solitude recently, but it doesn't have to mean that I don't welcome people in my life anymore. But my actions today have shown otherwise. It seemed like I'm avoiding people. I was actually glad that I made a conversation with Beto. We talked about Twilight. ^_~
 
At least I'm still capable of making conversation with some people; real conversation albeit being short. Most of my response today to people was only a smile.
 
Smile. Someone made me smile and happy today. And I know no one will ever be able to guess who.  This person doesn't even have any idea what effect meron siya upon me. Seeing this person made smile and happy, for I was reminded of the good things I've been through during the past year. This person helped me to be calm today, and most of the time. We never had any personal conversation, just formalities. Despite our not-close/indirect relationship, I thank God for this person's life. I know I am blessed because of this person.
 
 
 
 
Music:
Bana - Half Pain
 

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