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26 October 2007
encouragement
The grief is yet to come. But sorrow is already coming into surface consuming whatever it sees weak in me. There is none left to do but be strong. Like what a friend sent me, you have to be your own hero. I have no one to call and seek for help and comfort. There is no other JenShinrai.
Promises are made, but are also forgotten. Everything becomes vain. Some people are taken like a fad and some are treated like a toy. Great expectations, great disappointments. The troublesome of people.
All that is left of me is to be thankful for having JenShinrai. The strength she shows despite the weaknesses admire me in some ways. Her hope and faith always amaze me. Her wisdom to foresee things are commendable. But I do know she needs more introspection. She has to seek the Lord more and more because I also fail to be there for her. At times, I become the trouble of her heart.
Life has full of surprises as well as paradox. There are people torn within themselves. All that is left is to keep the faith. If she will insist what she has planned, she might lose a good friendship. Her troublesome, always running away.
A friend said she has a big heart. Perhaps it is true. Her patience and kindness inspite of the flowery words spoken pierceth yet she stands firm to show love. Her skeptic attitude saves her. Cerebrum over hypothalamus.
She is so troublesome. Will she be able to have her mind back? Heart is not a problem to her. It is delicate she does not want to trouble it. But she actually does. Mind is ever protective. Even though taken into captivity, mind tries to keep the responsibility for heart. I wonder how long will it take. I wonder what will happen when she is free to give and take. If only I can be there for her, if only I can give what she deserves. If only.
-Justice leaves Finland
*sigh*
music:
Barbie's Cradle - Goodnyt
Barbie's Cradle - Goodnyt
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